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| | So here I am in Arizona and I cant wait to go home already, and it hasnt even been 24 hours. Oh and did I mention I hate it here and I want to go home. I have no one to talk to, nothing to do, I get undermined when it come to my son, and I hate it here. | comments: Leave a comment   |
| So as many house wifes before me have done I am now selling AVON to try and bring a little bit of extra money into the home I share with my hubby and child.
So right now I am working on some online training tools to get things going. I ordered some samples and in couple weeks I am going to have an open house if you will, to introduce the products and let people know I am their AVON hook up so good luck to me. The cool thing is I have a website so www.youravon.com/hperez so hopefully I can get a little more business with that. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | On Tuesday my son will be a year old. I cant believe that this time last year I was waddling around waiting for him to get his butt in gear and make his entrance into the world. He is walking and saying some little words he is just so amazing honestly I love my life and I cant picture it without my husband and my son, hopefully in a couple years I'll be able to add a daughter to that or another son, I'm just so lucky to have my little family. My guys make my life complete. So Happy Mothers Day to me. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | why i dont play video games, I cant stop! hehe we bought Kingdom Hearts and let me say Love It! not very good at it but so love it! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| As of these past few months I have not had internet access at my house so I only get to be online for about a half an hour each weekend so not updating much.
Things are good the baby is so adorable and I cant believe he is going to be a year old in just a little bit this year had gone by waaaaay to fast.
Jorge and i bought my mom the cutest little boston terrier, her name is Minnie Mouse and she has a mickey mouse spot on her back. Thats about now I'm gonna go play with the dog. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| I'm trying hard not to call you
You said that you would call me.
Its still kind of hard to sit here
Unsure of where you are.
I want to lose this feeling
This fear of losing you.
Its not your fault I hurt like this
But I take it out on you.
I love you and I know you love me
Sometimes maybe I think you love me more.
But my heart is starting to pound
I havent heard from you still.
Its not your fault I hurt
Its nothing that you ever did.
I want to erase this fear I have
And give you the benefit of the doubt.
Damn the ones who have hurt me
The reasons I think you'll walk away.
Please dont lose faith in me
Because all of mines in you. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| And I am starting off this year as the proud mother of my adorable Bowie, the wife of my husband who may drive me nuts but I cant live without him and the rest of my family still intact.
Firsts,
First Married, Valentines Day, Fourth Of July, Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years.
First son born.
First surgery.
First wedding anniversary.
First time I met my nephew Dane and he is very cute.
Bowie says Mama at 6 months.
Bowie crawls at 6 months but really gets going at Christmas.
Bowie had a lot of firsts and I will run out of room before I can list them all, but first smiles at me at a little over a month.
All things considerd a pretty good year, it had its ups and downs but actually I'm just glad to have my husband and my son all under one roof. And I still dont intend to make the baby sleep in a crib anytime soon because I like getting sleep. Besides my mom watches him whenever she gets the chance so I do get breaks from him. Happy New Year and happy years to come. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | So my broinlaw is back from the beyond for a couple of weeks and guess what he brought Faythe. A new wedding band set good for but her was it really neccasery for him to copy MY WEDDING BAND, MINE! The one that Jorge designed for me and his father made for me. Greg went out and got Faythe a new band set and copied the wedding band that was MADE for me! For those of you who dont know what a wedding band set is it consists usually of the band itself and the engagement ring, I dont have an engagement ring I only have my wedding band and they had to go and copy it and everyone thinks that I should be okay with it well I'm not!!! I'm not okay with the fact that after she tryed to upstage my pregnancy she actually has the nerve to show me that her new wedding band is a copy of mine, who the hell does that what kind of weirdo thinks it funny to copy something as special as a wedding ring but I'm suppossed to be okay with it? I dont think so. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Well this had been an interesting week, I've spent some nice time with my sis and gone to the emergency room, talked to my husband and gone out to dinner with my dear friend Lolo so all in all a good week and now I leave to feed my son. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I'm in the OC to help my sister out with my new nephew which brings my moms grand child total to 8 so thats cool and I really want InNOut really badly thats about it. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I'm back down the hill, Jorge left yesterday for a month long stint of training on the road so I'm a little sad he is my soul mate if there is such a thing and I did cry but he'll be back soon and I have our lovely little boy to keep my smiling as only me guys can. Tomorrow I am going out to the OC to help Faythe out during the week with my new nephew Phillip but I have affectionately named him ET he's about a month premie so he is very tiny and thats about it for the past three weeks I havent spent more than two days in my apartment but hey my sisters need help so I'm there for them to the best of my abilitys. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | I'm in Big Bear at my sisters house until thursday so life is a little hectic but it gets a little bit better each day. Baby is getting his first set of teeth in he's got two that are really bugging him so he isnt the happy little baby that he usually is. I made some peach jam today it turned out pretty tasty and I made a little peach puree for the baby he loved it so today was his first successful solid food considering he hated the rice cereal so thats it for now peace out chicken pluckers. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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Okay can someone please explain this to me cuz I dont get it nope nope I dont.
Why the hell is it when I have a relationship with someone the relationship ending is my fault even though it ends because they walked away from me, point in case
We got back from AZ yesterday and we were hanging out watching a movie and just have some good family time me Jorge and Bowie I had my phone on low and missed a call, I had a message so I listened to it and the voice was a guy who didnt leave a name but it sounded like my little brother so I was like freakin out that something had happened to him so I called the number back and guess what, it was Izzy not my brother, yup thats right my EX from almost 4 years ago. He called me to ask me why I LEFT HIM!!!!! WHAT THE FUCK! I didnt leave him he made a dumb choice that landed his ass in jail and although he says he loved me and wanted to be with me he obviously didnt want it to that badly because I dont hear from him for almost 2 years later and after got out he went and dated some 35 year old but I', the one that left him??????? No no no no no boi you left me you screwed up you cheated you didnt want me so its not my damn fault, I told him that I finally found a man who didnt want to walk away from me with someone else I found a man who not only doesnt want to walk away from me with somoene else but instead wants to be with me so much to make the ultimate commitment of marrige I have a husband and a son I dont love you anymore and I havent for a long time and you dont love me either you love the thought of loving me you love what we used to have but thats over so you need to move on!
Another moment in my life where I am soooooooooooo glad that I only have two exs. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | After my cake class we are going to AZ for five days to visits the in laws before Jorge starts his trucking school and all that jazz so I will be unreachable by internet but if you got the number give me a call I can tell you of the heat buh bye. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Okay so here is the plan. Jorge currently has been hired to be a loan officer at a financial place and hopefully they will be paying enough for us to be alright. Also Jorge and I are both working on going to school, he is going to be hopefully going to DeVry to work on a tech degree and I will hopefully taking course online to get my degree in Human Resources,and between Jorge working and financial aid things will be a lot better. Soooo thats the plan hopefully things go at least half way according to plan. | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
| | The other night I was working a blog about baby and somehow it turned into a short story shall we say, about my birthing expierence. If it werent for the fact that I dont really much care for writing classes I would take one for doing short storys Lucia once told me I should take some kind of writing class maybe I will just buy creative writing for dummies and go from there. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | The 4th was mine jorge and bowies first official holiday as a family and honestly it was wonderful. I love my boys they make me so happy. We went to South Central to Jorges grandmas house for some really good asada and firworks, we took Kimmie with us and she had so much fun even though there was no way in hell she blended in with the other kids. We got there around 4:30 and I gave Bowie one of his bottles to keep from spending the whole time breastfeeding him, the bottle was okay though because it was breast milk mixed with a little bit of formula so he still got the good stuff. I talked with his Tia Blanka for a bit, she had her little boy two weeks ago so we were comparing baby storys about things like sleep, eating, chupones, just basic baby stuff which was nice. Jorges Tia Silvia from Tiajuana was there with his cousin Vanessa and I met his cousin Victor and some other family members, nice people and I'm picking up a little bit more spanish, Jorges grandma took the baby in bedroom so that I could eat which was nice, I got to eat some really good pollo asada with rice beans and tortillas I think I ate a little to much. More talking and hanging out, I nursed the baby a little bit after the fireworks and then I put him in his sling so I could go back outside with Jorge and Kimmie, it was really nice standing there with my husband and my son watching Kimmie and the other little ones setting off firworks in the front. It was a really long day but probably one of the best 4th of julys of my life. I could not have asked for a better one my husband and my son, its still seems a bit like a dream at times but I love my boys very much and life without them wouldnt be life worth living. | | comments: 3 comments or Leave a comment |
| | My baby is growing so very fast, and from what people keep telling me he is very alert for a six week old baby. Right now he is sitting in his little bouncy seat looking at me, he smiles at me when I talk to him and he makes little cooing sounds when I talk to him in the mornings when he wants his early morning feeding. He is just the most amazing person I have ever met, he is such a sweet baby, he rarely crys, he has pretty good sleeping spells and he will let people hold him without making a fuss. I cant believe how blessed I am to have such a beautiful baby boy in my life, my little Bowie Gabriel he is without a doubt the joy of me and his father. I was talking to my mom earlier and we talked about how Faythe may not be very happy and I told her that I am happy. I'm happy with my life, I know that Jorge and I got married only three months after dating but I could not think of my life without him as my husband, I wouldnt trade my husband and son for anything in the world, they are my loves. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Monday I started the week off pregnant and very tired of being that way. My mom came and picked me up at 9:30 and a lot happened within the hours between 9:30 and 12:30. I had my nst test at 10:15 and because the baby was over due and not moving around much the doctor at the stress center spoke to Dr Savla while I was there, from nst I went to my appointment with Dr. Savla and for the first time my name was called right away which told me something was going on. Dr. Savla came in and checked me and found that five days after my due date I was still not dilated or ephaced so she said that she wanted me to go to the hospital for an ultra sound to get an idea of the babys weight. Before I left my mom asked about me being induced and basically she said they could but labor would take to long and might not work. We got down the hospital and I was admitted to labor and delivary where they got my info and took some blood and did an ultrasound of the baby to check his weight so by 12:30 I had been admitted to the hospital and one way or another I was going to be having the baby before the next 24 hours was up. I called Jorge at work to let him know that I was actually at the hospital and he came right over. After they took the info for guessing his weight Dr. Savla checked the info and came in to talk with us. Because I was 5 days past due she was thinking that they baby might be to big, and there were two ways to go about this. One they could try and induce me but because nothing was happening on its own labor would be very long and it might have ended in an emergency csection which would not have been good for me or baby, opttion Two was to perform a csection and get him out because things were not progressing on their own. So there was about a 75% chance that I would end up on the operating table no matter what. Everything was up to Jorge and I, and as much as I didnt want a csection which he knew and I knew it looked like that was our safest bet so Jorge and I decided to go with the csection because that was the best thing for getting him out with the least amount of danger, so my csection was schedualed for 6 pm from 1:30 to 6 I was in a room for labor and delivary they prepped me and all I could do was wait, I did cry because I wanted to bring him into the world the way that my body was made to but I needed to do what would be best and safest for him. 6:15 they came and took me to the OR, before surgery Jorge had to take out my nose ring because there was a small chance of me getting burned, they gave me spinal ansthesia which basically numbs you from just under the breasts and down the rest of your body which was painful and not being able to feel any part of your body from the chest down is a little bit scary. Dr Savla and Dr Maloney came in and Jorge sat next to my head, I thought they might have said they were going to begin but they didnt so I had not clue what was going. I heard a little gasp and then I heard my son cry for the first time it was the most wonderful sound I have ever heard and I started crying because my baby was out and he was okay I breathed a huge sigh of relief and cried a little bit more. Ansthesia was given at 6:46, incision was made at 6:58 and at 7 pm exactly my son was born. The csection was actually the best thing because apparently the cord had wrapped around his neck and thats why things werent progressing with me. Now we are home and everything is going fine. Monday I get my staples taken out. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
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| | On my way to NST followed by yet another doctors appointment at which I will be told still all closed up, because thats just how things are working out right now. As far as I am concerned as long as the baby is still alright I can wait its a matter of I want to see him and hold him and actually know that he is okay. And I'm not the only one, its finally sunk in with Jorge that he is going to be a daddy last night he was telling me that he wants to hold him but he cant because he is in my tummy. So I'm off to see the doctor. | | comments: Leave a comment |
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